As I lay here

hey middle of the nighters.

Saturday night. Tossing and turning. Why is it always Saturday? I already get up way before the birds to get to church. Sunday’s are a huge day and tomorrow, I mean today is no exception.

Wedding schedule and details crept into the brain and started to churn.

Oh my word…… Invitations need to be addressed. Do we write them or do we made labels so they are prettier?

Courtney needs to decide on a veil. Courtney needs to final fit her dress.

How many food stations will we have? Oh I want those little boneless chicken fingers and where should we get them from?  And that raspberry mousse I saw in Pinterest. Good Lord I need to stay away from Pinterest…….

I need a dress. I need shoes. I need accessories. Pearls!!! Mother of the Bride should wear peals? I don’t think I want to wear pearls. I need to look spectacular as Mother of the Bride. I’ve searched for a dress but I can’t seem to make a decision. I have sent pictures of 50 different dresses for advise and I get great feedback, what’s the problem? The problem is my brain is fried. I have made so many house decisions that I can’t seem to make anymore without wondering if it’s right. I’m scared. I’m afraid it won’t be perfect. There goes that  imperfection vs. perfection again. I think there is pattern here. Oh wait, am I comparing myself to a tub?

Whenever I worry, whenever I fret, whenever I question myself, whenever I anything….I go to my Bible. I never have to worry about wrong advise. I never have to wonder if its written correctly or if I  need to google for accuracy. Its just the Truth.

Satan is a discourager. He wants me to think that I am not good enough. He doesn’t like that I am a God’s prized possession, the Bible says in 2 Corinthians 3:5

Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God.

I will never be good enough in my eyes. But Ephesians says that I am His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

I had a friend read the post I wrote on Imperfect vs Perfect. A comment was made, “I know you are not fishing for compliments…..” What?  is that really how that was read? Please know that I am not looking for compliments. I write on my imperfections and struggles because I think so many women and maybe even men deal with some of the same insecurities and issues that I struggle with. I only want to point others to the only solution there is, Jesus. Period. End of the story? Definitely not.

The struggles will continue. Why? Because we live here on earth. We have relationships with other people. We have house renovations and weddings, we have parents and siblings, we have friends. Everyone deals with stuff. My stuff is no different than your stuff, it just has different details. It’s not HOW we deal with it. Its WHO we go to with it.

I am going to go write a timeline for wedding stuff so maybe my brain will shut off and I can go to sleep.

Happy Sunday morning middle of the night friends. It’s going to be a great day. If you don’t have a church and live in the Ocala Florida area, come see us at Church of Hope.


the girl who WILL buy a Mother of the Bride dress this week.

About Charmadawn

Jesus lover 💜 Wife of Steve for 36 years 💜 Mom to 2 grown kiddos 💜 BB to grandsons Jack, Luke and Patrick Joseph 💜5 years ago we purchased, Rescued and Restored a 118 year old farmhouse and we live together as a multigenerational household. Come follow our crazy. Isaiah 54:7
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