Do you ever feel like you are sitting in a pool of indecisive muck?
Life is so good. I have nothing to complain about but the moments of question, the decisions that are hard to make can feel like a noose.
My head says to worry and wonder the “what if’s” and my heart says “when there is lack, He provides.” Lack of confirmation. Lack of truth. He will provide. I just have to trust.
I had a conversation with a friend yesterday morning. It went something like this:
D: I just put a little gift on the porch. Also left a little something for you. Love you! You and Steve have a fantastic anniversary trip😘
C: You are sweet
D: Sometimes you need to put yourself first, sometimes the littlest things make us feel special.
C: Love you. So grateful for you in my life
D: Me too!
C: I live a cushy life I sometimes don’t feel worthy of putting myself first.
D: Well friends are here to remind you of those little things sometimes.
C: That’s why it’s important to have those people in your lives
D: I’m sure that’s God’s intention!
C: What is lacking, He provides
God provides needs and wants even when we don’t think we deserve it.
We traveled South today for a couple days of rest. We stopped to see Dad Kern. He loves his dog. His dog loves him. God has provided daughters to care for Dad. Daughters that live close by and are able to be there for his and his dogs daily needs. It’s sometimes hard to live hours away. Today when we stopped, we were able to walk his dog. We were able to give daughters a day off, not that they asked for one. When there is lack, He provides
Our home is full of people. We are a great team. But sometimes it feels like something is missing. As Steve and I drove yesterday, we talked about how spending time with others is a major priority this year. Peoples lives are full. Our lives are full. Redundancy creeps in and it feels like work, cleaning, cooking, TV and sleep are the round the clock schedule. We are blessed to have a great house for gathering. 2019 is the year for making people important. I sent out a group text for “game night!” Even with the closest friends, I still feel anxious wondering if friends want to gather. Maybe they are too busy. Maybe it’s a bad night. Maybe they are sick of game night. When there is lack, He provides. 12 wonderful friends will be coming over for game night.
When life brings questions and concerns, as I look out into the ocean and see the Sunshine Skyway Bridge. The bridge that was struck by a barge on May 9th, 1989 at 7:33am. Though the blinding rain, drivers in the southbound lanes were unable to see the missing roadway ahead. Six cars, a truck, and a Greyhound Bus plunged into the waters below. One man survived. 35 others were killed. Today, this majestic bridge stands strong. It carries 1000’s of people everyday across from Palmetto to St. Petersburg. Growing up in Manatee County, I have driven across the original bridge as a teenager in a 1969 Volkswagen with a stick shift. The original bridge was a long flat span and then straight up. Scary as crap I say!!! The new bridge is more of a slant and it’s so beautiful.
Some of the original bridge still stands and now is a fishing pier. It’s original purpose might not be used but it now allows people to fish and provide food for their families. It allows peace as people stand from this old bridge platform and see the new bridge in their sights knowing that in lack, He provides.
Have a blessed Friday,