Just Write

I was watching a show the other night and it talked about journaling. The character on the show said “what should I write about?” The other person said “whatever pops into your mind.”

I haven’t had much to say on this blog page but I really enjoy writing so I decided to just write.

I’ve thought a lot lately about Luke.

Two different people in the last few weeks didn’t even know about Luke. He’s the middle grandson. Jack, the oldest is a people person and loves everyone. The baby is so cute and sweet.

Luke is a little quieter.

He’s a little more introverted

He’s the snuggler. He will sit for a long time on your lap with absolutely no agenda. He’s sweet and loves to follow his big brother around.

I’m the baby of our family and was always doted on. Daddy’s little girl. Pretty pretty princess. I didn’t have a middle sibling and I never want Luke to have the stigma of being the middle child.

He’s the best little boy and is so very loved 💙💙💙

I recently quit my job.

Was it a real job?

It was 10 hours a week and I got paid.

So yea, it was a job

I’ve never needed or wanted a job to “complete” me. I either had a job to bring in a little extra $$ or the job found me. I’m happy staying home.

I’m happy caring for the people that live here.

I enjoy being able to help Steve with a delivery when he needs a driver, babysit in a pinch, meet a friend for lunch and volunteer.

I like nothing better than heading to the garage in my paint splattered clothes, earbuds and a drink and spend hours creating something out of nothing.

This was my dads gun case. I’ve added shelves and started painting

I’ll continue being content in my little corner of the world. I have a great family, wonderful friends and many things to be thankful for

I’ve being thinking a lot about social media. My previous job required social media posts. Now, I scroll for fun and sometimes to put one of my garage creations up for sale or post about a recent Coffee Hour Tuesday morning.

Often I don’t like what I see, read or feel while scrolling. The world we live in, is sometimes scary and I don’t want to be a part of negativity, politics, racial slander, religious offense snd so many other things I see while on any given social media platform.

Freedom is just that…….Freedom. But freedom doesn’t come with earbuds or eye patches and I haven’t quite figured out what I’m going to do about it.

In recent weeks I’ve been confronted. I won’t share what I was confronted about but it was serious enough that now I question

My integrity

My honesty

My loyalty

My whole being

This confrontation has stirred up feelings I have never had, I question social media and it’s purpose in my life.

I’m not ready to remove the apps yet but as I pray, I’m asking God to show me things I need to change.

While I might question who I am……I will never question whose I am.

It’s taken me a couple of days to “just write.”

Why is it so hard?

I’m not sure but I’ll continue to ponder thoughts and try to put them until words.

Jack and I have a date today so I’m out of here.

Happy Friday friends

About Charmadawn

Jesus lover 💜 Wife of Steve for 36 years 💜 Mom to 2 grown kiddos 💜 BB to grandsons Jack, Luke and Patrick Joseph 💜5 years ago we purchased, Rescued and Restored a 118 year old farmhouse and we live together as a multigenerational household. Come follow our crazy. Isaiah 54:7
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