What do you do when you are unsettled?
Do you go shopping?
Do you ask a friend to lunch?
Do you want to be alone?
I need to be dirty
I need to be sweaty and use my muscles.
I feel unsettled this week.
The baby is coming any second.
Jack is 2. He wanted to eat dinner with a spatula last night and would not stop until it happened
Steve is on the road today and his travel is taking three times longer than it’s supposed to.
The rain is so beautiful for a couple of days but the gloom we have had for days is hard on my soul.
I knew I needed to get out of the house today and this pile of pavers called my name.
Jack’s new picnic table needs a platform and we’ve been saving these leftover pool pavers just for this purpose.
Y’all it’s hot
These pavers are heavy and they have to picked up, put in a wheel barrel, moved across the patio, picked up again and put in a new place
The dirt is moved and the ground leveled
Try bugs and worms that have gotten very comfortable living around the pavers for months and months.
I might have screamed a few times
As I strain my muscles and feel the sweat roll down my face, I feel peace.
As I worked, I listened to a podcast – today was Annie Downs interviewing Lauren Daigel.
It was so good
I laughed and I cried.
I enjoyed it so much.
My favorite quote from the podcast was “Share the gospel and SOMETIMES use words.”
I haven’t been a great friend. I have had to apologize for being mediocre. I haven’t shared the gospel quietly or loudly. I’ve been put in my place.
I will be better.
But today I will move pavers until my muscles can’t move anymore. I will spread dirt and listen to podcasts while sweat runs down my face and my fingernails may never be clean again.
I will learn to not just say words but put action into place. Even if I don’t know what to do…… do some thing.
Here’s hoping to meet our new grandchild soon and I might try eating with a spatula soon.
Have a great day!